LEVEL

Some days we spend our time trying to get a foothold on the top of a very steep and slippery slope.  At the bottom of this slope is where we keep our fears and phobias, our neurosis and our neediness.  On most days we manage to stay above, navigating the path that runs along the ridge of this hill.  Then there are days when the top is covered with ice.  The more we struggle to keep our balance the more unsure our footing becomes, the steeper the slope will look, the greater the fear of slipping.  

The fear we feel is not from looking into the abyss.  We’ve seen these monsters before, we’ve battled them and won, that’s why on most days we stand, surefooted, on top of the slope. What scares the hell out of us is the falling itself, is feeling the vulnerability, that, and the climb back up.

Letting go and falling is hard only because we believe that the journey back up the slope will be even harder.  That’s why on the journey up, some of us crawl to a certain level and then stop to rest.  Some of us rest too long.  We begin to hear the voice of fear in our ear.  Some of us get stuck on our way up and get lost in remembering the times we were strong, strutting on the lip of that slope, it reminds us how tired and weak we feel right now.  

It’s okay, go ahead and rest on that level.  Rest assured that you will get back up though. You will climb to the top and stand strong again.  How do I know?  Because you’ve done it before and that has provided you with awareness.  That awareness is a guarantee, yes a guarantee, that you will make it up that slippery slope, every time you fall.  

Awareness of your strength, even if you don’t feel that strength right now, just the awareness raises you to a new level, that creates a path that leads you back to the top.

This is the time to be kind to yourself, be patient.